combines
(or speed dating with robert rauschenberg)
john mingay
whatever can’t be done in a single burst
suffers from the unevenness of our spirit.
(fernando pessoa)
for malps
untitled (ca. 1954)
she curtsies and the dance has begun
with an explosion of fragments of blushing reds
ever so critically contained as one by moppings of mesh
trashed from the legs of whores whose mouths once snarled
their venomous curses on the perfidy of mankind
but there is no music to dance to
red interior (1954)
what of stone bricked so straight so square
so shines so shines the complete and utter pointlessness
of mere mortar amidst this madness this melancholy
where no one holds fast to any one other than self
as if lost islands from which the living have left
so how can there be anything lasting to love
untitled (1954)
seen like this from here from where you say you see it
through opaque panes no longer constrained in rotten frames
I am slowly beginning to look like to feel so much a fraud
mediocre at best even though even best can on cue
so easily be bettered by the cutest darn and patch
you say the blood is there for all to see
untitled (1954)
expiring but not before finding our way to bathe in beauty
to be held in a crotch of gnarled fingers pointing heavenward
to tell their own tale in words that as always go unheard
where what is ever to be heard is neither here nor there
as we continue to bask in a sunshine that tells no lies
impermanence all the while a most welcome truth
collection (1954/5)
from a kaleidoscope landscape of snow and field
the hungry are fed an aesthetic purée of sentient sustenance
all to arouse feelings more necessary than the feeding itself
feelings that form the core the crux of what it is to be
of what it is to see without dread each sun each day
the urban famine forgotten in the moment
minutiae (1955)
as it stands from back to front in layers of time
on limbs so dissimilar as to suggest an ambiguous history
you look on aghast at its plenitude of dusks and dawns
drawn up into itself unshared in being so rarely seen
each of its screens scrawled with secret oaths
vows stretched into a single walking line
paint cans (1954)
cans become wills as in when all will be done
on earth as it is in heavenly dreams of spectra used now
as empty as what daily bread is ever given to melt our
hearts into dribbles and droolings over what is in truth
nothing to cause such anticipation of the cross
with blind faith there is no snake to handle
charlene (1954)
you are somewhere beneath this patchwork it seems
or maybe that could be you there headlessly melting in cream
or is it all just a pathetic hoax to check for new knee jerks
to tailor into the next fashion in attitude soon to be aired
pegged out alongside the rest of your dirty washing
understandably nobody is compelled to answer
untitled (1954)
held to ransom by the light and air the transom dams
like promises made but never kept for the sake of wanting
craving to give and take without considering the paradox
the obligation to be all things to all men while falling
unwittingly into creating teases and temptations
the final commons dead behind the glass
untitled (1954)
standing so peacock proud in linens and straw
only to be reduced to chicken strutting nevertheless
but now as the sole believer in its very own being
with so far already fallen and to fall some more
to shatter the mirror that tells its many lies
an empire can so easily die a naked death
bantam (1955)
caught on a bit of a sticky wicket without knowing quite
what to do about it without making too much of a to do over
telling whether the place or the fowl is meant or unmeant
or simply a name plucked at random from stark choices
scrawled on the wall in a chalky list of prospects
baring all and slipping into a sea of yellow
satellite (1955)
through an unfettered landscape of nameless wilderness
where all the day is laid out with neither method nor madness
you appear aloft enrobed in all your faded feathered finery
exposed to the unseen elements that ruffle your plumage
a simple arrow pointing to where you might have been
only with time do the changes ever show
bed (1955)
nothing comes of anything gone but for an emptiness
that would sleep deeply forever were it to be left untroubled
unruffled by the whispering of ghost talk on the pillow
of the last words of lovers lost to paroxysms of hate
grown through days that must each reach an end
a quilt no longer enough to muffle a voice
short circuit (1955)
your discoloured rainbow lies open spotted naked
yet only subliminally seen for the everything it is and was
and is still to be when it takes on the short way round
as if no long term solution no enduring answer
exists to ever survive beyond tomorrow
the circuit complete though void
odalisk (1955/8)
with barely a leg to rely on you pose there waiting
your nakedness leaving all to see all of your promises
laid bare in the emptiness of your seraglio cloister
the hush only broken by the clucking of time
passing as if in a pillowless freefall to hell
paradise is only a narghile dream
untitled (ca.1955)
segmented into eighths and silently chorded to stand
guard over what there is of some part hidden traces of living
a life of forgetting and leaving it lost or of modestly chewing
the cud before going without a care for this field left empty
but for the fighting cocks fighting their endless fight
the distractions of war spent hosing away the blood
rebus (1955)
you can run but you sure can’t hide from the bare horror
of seeing the sun appear again with yet another day as ever
to follow but then give nothing away of its many riches
its most knowing of what’s known of anything more
that’s worth retaining of the ruins of polity slain
a crossed box changes nothing in the game
interview (1955)
your smile awakens the matadors folded up behind
a door where they begin to strut in a parade of paradoxes
heading hellbent towards death disguised as artfulness
while knowing layer upon layer that they’ll have a ball
and you will still be sitting naked in your naivety
the picadors too aspire to be these fêted killers
levee (1955)
how long is the shift that tells us how far we have come
across sleepy stretching yawning waters then through forests
of trees scabbing over hillsides cut and torn by ice and wind
how long is this shift on the way to a nowhere where you
and I will look into a mirror your face the only one seen
takhos takes on a greater sense of urgency
hymnal (1955)
clutching at straws you have reached an impasse where
everything is nothing and there is no way back but to praise
a lord you have come to have only a most cautious faith in
wanting only what you have always wanted of direction
and a death for those ghosts scratched on the wall
each pasted scrap holds a clue to itself
gloria (1956)
she bites her tongue hard as if not wanting to finish the words
she has already thrice begun like I do and to have and to hold
whether in sickness or in health or whether somersaulting
through the air her heels over her head with sentences
spurting out in spirals as her lover laughingly looks on
neither knowing quite when their game will end
rhyme (1956)
I am with but never a part of this monstrous conformity
of half truths and lies you claim as reality without the irony
a more cynical mind may have added just for the hell
just for the fun of smelling your innards laid bare by
the fire of the sun seen framed in the winter snow
the rime yet to settle where it falls
hazard (1957)
around the table the symmetry of every aspect is chance
swaddled in its uniformly monochrome tucks and the crispest
of taffeta dreams as if all to hide behind while the real world
is evermore endangered by the greed that grossly passes
for growth in an ebbing world beset by shaft and screw
the impossibility of aspiration is increasingly clear
painting with red letter s (1957)
if today’s the day a red letter day when all in each circle is
imagined to come to fruition to come to its anticipated apogee
then what of it if the pattern we are trying to go with is hidden
bar the faintest fringe to hint at a hometown long denied
and what of it if news of it is only now received in red
what you see is what you get is only a probable truth
wager (1957)
these near empty streets have made you what you are
as if the few secrets you have quietly placed are to suffice
in drawing the odds in your favour if it comes down to it
if the circumstances demand it if there’s nothing else
for it aside from these scant offerings found in time
some say only the random can make a difference
memorandum of bids (1957)
it all seems all the more mapped out the closer comes
the end of it all as though the ante has already been upped
with nothing left to proffer to offer to feasibly put forward
with any hope of breaking free from fate’s fickle route
nothing really left but to hold your tongue and wait
wisdom would have silence a virtue to grow into
factum I (1957)
so often inadvertently we get so far ahead of ourselves
with what’s to come already squeezing itself into the present
that it becomes hard to decide whether life’s bitter inferno
has been or is yet to come to hide living’s sullied laundry
and to bring an escape clause in a script formed to a t
nothing changes the madness being here has become
factum II (1957)
back again with something new of the same if I can put it in
those terms a number two if you like a someone always around
to ask where it was we were going before we went the wrong
way too far off course to do anything except to come back
again with something new of the same as if a tally is kept
even a precedent requires some kind of myth to survive
the tower (1957)
a blue light flickers beneath a bladder blackened although
unrelated with neither ever clearly the consequence of the other
even in the turnery in the spire built to appease the rain gods
even in any smoky groundation from which hopes are taken
neither is ever clearly the consequence of very much at all
happenstance leads reason astray too well
coca-cola plan (1958)
there you were laid out stretched out on an imagined floor
planning to fly if only to match your soul to your surroundings
to keep swigging at life like it’s some sort of unlabelled tonic
offsetting every absurdity in a world hooked on absurdities
addicted to as if mutton to orb with the fences closing in
your wings are your single salvation
curfew (1958)
left it too late to go far with time’s steely tip menacingly now
already tapping at the door through which one day I must leave
abandoning you to your ghosts hiding in the shadows of grief
yet aware none will come and none will be there to help you
to decipher the joke in the homonym you can’t understand
there’s familiarity around the corner from everywhere
talisman (1958)
somewhere just there in the hanging jar see why doubly are
as if to typify a perfect concentration ready to be handed a flower
starting with the letter s with too subtle a scent to even conjure
any memory of summers gone nor of the flatteries they held
a flower too sensitive to send its seed beyond the verge
unsurprisingly time can’t help but bury the past
forge (1959)
replicating the future as though believing it could be lured
from the memory of the shadow days already been and gone
you seem to become entangled in the first instance of deed
done with my dangerous fourth lying a single step beyond
the sea to be an alphabet of arid sands caught in reverse
for even the least moisture can come to create a storm
migration (1959)
this and that and these and those and moving along still
to where in time an x will mark the spot reserved for secrets
never to be told never to be confessed to gossips or crows
to where the birch barks doggedly in welcoming us there
to its colourless world through which only blood seeps
in coming of age there is no going back
summerstorm (1959)
tied to a t that knows no boundaries to its feral dance
across the surface of blotches and smears and scraps
of memories at no time lived and only seldom dreamt
of in sleepless nights beneath a slit in the tarry sky
we are pitched together to watch its tango unfold
as is always said the show must go on
trophy I (for merce cunningham) (1959)
an alarm bell clangs its cast brass tongue as a caution
to warn of having taken a step too far from yew bow to stick
to balance as only a part of the suite by chance but aware
that what follows is always fated always destined to be
whether finally at four score and ten or more or less
there is no avoiding the ashes and dust
kickback (1959)
if what you want is to fly with the blackbirds in the sky
then what lies beneath the waves will go forever unseen
with your hands tied by your being confined by angle
and your eyes straining to see the horses gallop on
towards an unnoticed finale with no known return
you are the making of more than where you are
canyon (1959)
sleep soundly as though suspended only by a string
and wave in such a way as others will see it as drowning
mistaking your gesture for the cold torment of descent
of being drawn into that social net that has no weight
but the waiting for the swoop of desire’s vile wings
with the wanting comes a lifeless life
backwash (1959)
to see what’s washed ashore on the tidewater’s surge
is to know what there is of our living’s inescapable detritus
with what we want so much more than the little we need
all told of in twisted secrets all to be swallowed whole
all to exchange the creed for another no less insane
there are messages for the future left in the sand
inlet (1959)
cooler suddenly with all the implications this twilight suggests
rushing in through the narrowness masquerading as an escape
from the inescapable obscurity of night and its corkscrewing
bird-dance encompassing the skewed and scarred moment
when arrogance and ignorance collided to become the rule
a losing battle only has heroes who sink into the mire
broadcast (1959)
hidden from hearing their melancholic cries for help
no matter how the airwaves are combed for even one
they become disoriented in the confusion of strokes
while we fumble impotently with our deafened ears
struggling to compensate for our humanly failings
some sounds are so small as only to be smelled
double feature (1959)
a tick to mark it done aloft in a heavenly garret
where angels starve for want of nourishing words
half-hidden if need be if only ever to be checked
or half-seen if seen from another point of view
from where an equine dilapidation descends
the tally of days spent scratched on the wall
magician (1959)
hocus-pocus then hey presto and the voodoo
is begun the black blade invisibly spinning hacking
the letters of the poet’s curse that plummet into
a heap of misunderstanding and construal
no-one any the wiser not that it matters
the curse of course is in calling himself poet
pail for ganymede (1959)
running here and there and pushed and pulled and again
over and over as now a thrall to the gods and their thirsting
for the situla’s purest waters they guzzle at having paid
with infinite youth and a love never to be spoken of
and all the while you pine for more modest times
yet how to know when the eagle is just that
bride’s folly (1959)
where she went wrong was in going sticking a
fork in his eye viciously unexpectedly with neither
rhyme nor reason suddenly to be a crazy witch
lashing out through her frigid frustrations and
an insanity born of jealousy hate and need
anything can be a fantasy after all
winter pool (1959)
way down below down ladders to take tea in cups
coated in mosaics of previous calamities unmourned
for lack of someone to mourn them or to howl at life
as if anyone could honestly give a monkey’s just
as long as the teapot is tipped way down below
beyond the basics decorum lives a fragile life
monogram (1955-59)
it’s too tiresome to try to tame the wild bezoar with
just a promise of things to come when the days reach
the peak of rosy domesticity without a care to allude
to the fenced fields and tethering twines that will
become the fate of all confined in this cloister
for what is civilisation but coercion disguised
gift for ileana (1959)
you say your god has answered though to me
the question you asked remains brazenly vague
unstill in the way a ray of sun dances in leaves
like those you have come to use so sparingly
to veil your modesty albeit a hollow mount
we all hear voices not all of them real
three traps for medea (1959)
whether by accident or intent three are no more
to remember the warmth of your swollen breasts
sagging now from all that has been of a living
lived only to fleece those heroes you caged
with your heart to prove the line of descent
our mothered men’s minds are moved to madness
painting with grey wing (1959)
you can stand and smile or take flight from where
there is only a numbered emptiness held in shackles
beneath the city lights that climb up to the heavens
as though some modern-day babel rapt in night
and teetering under its own unrelenting weight
boundless growth blind to the writing on the wall
allegory (1959-60)
when the sand rains on the fable’s opening phrases
we can take what we want from everything left unsaid
make what we want of the nothingness left behind
and find what we want in fancied scraps and rags
of a middle and an end to the story unfolding
we are our own gods in history’s long making
nettle (1960)
there’s only a chain’s length between here and rust
an any-length that could go on ad infinitum or stop dead
in its tracks before it even gets going to wherever that
would be without it being anywhere but rust as ready
to envelop time as to release the past from its pain
the sting of each minute no exemption from the next
diplomat (1960)
you can only hope you weren’t meant to see the dialogue
taking place because that’s not what’s supposed to happen
in the marks made that come from within rather than only
through the eyes as of old in times without plate or reel
when to digest reality was worth every detail drawn
easy to forget an elsewhere can now be closer to home
pilgrim (1960)
take a seat and wait for the sky to collapse around you
while you catch a breath from walking your yatra in hope
your journey of faith that holds out more of a promise
than of the heavens falling where you come to rest
as if to goad you with an enigma of soul and flesh
each pause along the way stretches the riddle further
summer rental #1 (1960)
from amongst shards of words we’ve never heard
spoken by angels in their falling from heavenly grace
we begin to make meaning of what we’ve been told
in another tongue lolling its black orange and flesh
over the colourless polar purity of the unspoken
of a single word a thousand others are born
summer rental #3 (1960)
what can’t be said tumbles out anyway hither
and thither scattering its smattering of mattering
into a waterfall of shimmering shards of letter
after letter each an escaping echo hell bent
on being heard above the unceasing din
what shouldn’t be said is for another time
studio painting (1960-61)
carried through the lines your sentences spark
as you wait as if anticipation is the length of rope
on which you will soon sink like a weighted sack
strung up in the air and deaf to your every word
though still hopeful the lines will go on carrying
what persists is first considered
trophy II (for teeny and marcel duchamp) (1960)
any stretched septet may be something more
than happenchance while others may not quite
make the grade and be destined for all time
to bumble along with nothing really to say
caught up in the question of connotation
yet with seven the same can be said of one
trophy III (for jean tinguely) (1961)
were you ever anything more than what you are
now that you come to mention where you once lay
stranded on springs long since given way to rust
stretched on a scaffold just hinting at the ornate
were you ever anything more than confused
and is it true what they say about bedsheets
black market (1961)
there’s only one way to skin a goose or cook a cat
and for both at their lines’ end with time running low
only a cracked crock of crap to show for it all
the kind of crap that’s taken or left as if ever
to be anything other than a dying memento
a metaphor says more of a man than a man ever can
first landing jump (1961)
installed as if an unmoving fixture without escape
so as to strangle all dreams dreamt of an elsewhere
to be to see the ever-closing circle finally disappear
like that late-night dot that would flash and vanish
to mark the transition from day to darkness done
the worst of it all is that it makes immaculate sense
third time painting (1961)
this has been the hour of our betrayal by quislings
our world suddenly smaller and the picturesque now
an open prison from where to persist as a thorn in
the side but continue to wonder who we can be
without the links in the chains of who we were
it’s said we cannot help but be controlled by time
pantomime (1961)
behind you the wind blows through on an evil squall
bringing the blackness of night and the scarlet of blood
to mark out the days ahead finally following our hearts
our minds unable to disagree with the inevitable any
longer any more while servitude’s chains remain
what was left to laugh at soon takes on a sterner face
aen floga (1961)
a signal of sorts stands proudly erect ordering a stop
to all that would otherwise pass then to become ghosts
now to grasp the possibilities beyond the probabilities
to be given the chance to dream a short time longer
though never immune from the encroaching light
dreams are what we take with us to our graves
trophy IV (for john cage) (1961)
even the light becomes an anchor to tie us to reality
as though what we see in the dark is only a dreamland
of zero use and so of zero worth and so of zero note
but not to all not at all is such madness ever done
these few minds drift forever on their raft at night
there is no normal for the owl nor for the lark
empire I (1961)
grounded by a weight of wall wrenched from footings
and abandoned to drag to a halt any thought of escape
we have become rooted in the ground yet fail to grow
to show to tell where better begins and failures falter
so we wait in silence for the spokes to speak again
a carrot-and-stick may offer a galvanising solution
empire II (1961)
what counts most is for the exhaustion to be self
inflicted if it’s to be considered at all real and not just
like three wheels pretending to be four for effect
shamming on the shore to an absent audience
a line finely drawn in sand marks our worlds
without our own ice we cannot skate
rigger (1961)
buttons buttons I can do up buttons and do away
with the elocutionary righteousness foisted upon me
by an angel to hang heavily like a threat on a thread
of bourgeoise intolerance towards everything other
than what’s right and proper in god’s perfect world
a deo salus is only said in a plummy paisley voice
door (1961)
investing in the future with plastic cap collateral
the returns beyond this side of a firmly closed door
you can only stand and wait and hope the chicken
will stay to support your miracle of infinite growth
all the while ignoring the inevitable end of being
any child of snow or sun can easily fathom this
first time painting (1961)
an hour passes with sweepless static hands numb
to each moment melting into the next to form a string
and in those sixty minutes you vent your vexations
in living this life onto anyone you can find to listen
to those inconsequentials you believe paramount
such trifling blindly overlooks the bigger picture
magician II (1961)
cradled by wires by messages sent and received
our country is your country seen through solid rose
to conceal the real states of sad affairs where time
goes down on wealth ensuring everyone’s fucked
one way or the other in your nightmarish dream
the fascination with magic soon wears off
slug (1961)
in having laid our mucus-sodden trail of crumbs
of unheeded detail of who we are and were but still
missing the boat makes a nonsense of being lost
when every sign was there apparent plain to see
guiding the way with handless ace-less sleeves
now there’s only the years to pass in sitting-it-out
blue eagle (1961)
of the moving parts there is only one moves more freely
than all the others lethargic for lack of liberating lubricant
and this single part turns so far from the cotton-slogans
emblazoned by the smug to be unnoticed by the blind
so as to be lost and found only by following the light
and meanwhile the lead greys the skies above
stripper (1962)
one could make up all kinds of significances but then
maybe none exist in thrice flagging as to fall far behind
perhaps even the title reference is just wishful thinking
thought by the viewer as being what was thought by
the artist who may only have been thinking of paint
a nervous man once told me to assume nothing
trophy v (for jasper johns) (1962)
empty on the one hand with no view on the other
changes nothing really when you try to measure it
to pin it securely as you would a blushing butterfly
not even if the box echoes and the glass reveals
only the nothing of the nothingness that lives
it’s so hard to tell whether to stop or go
inside-out (1962)
been ready to go but go on waiting to be gone
door open and wheels all pointing in one direction
knowing it’s now too late with the veneer peeling
but never quite giving up on the dream to leave
to not even pause to say goodbye to the past
the wheel keeps turning in its triangular whole
wooden gallop (1962)
life lost to the perforation of salvation in custardy
yellow stuck there now onto panel and rusted metal
as if there had been something to say that stayed
unsaid held safe in a camouflaged can perhaps
for later maybe for never only a can can know
the living take their unholy secrets with them
ace (1962)
all there is still to be seen shines as dull metal
caught between isles of oil and once-upon trees
esoteric to the core in its abstraction of magic
culled from surreal dreams while you lazed
asleep to the world you hoped would stop
close essentially to a blindness of sorts
dylaby (1962)
hang loose he said far too often for it to mean
anything more than the platitude it had become
dropping it in like an iron falling fast to ground
like a sign of the liquid past at last coming to
join the party as if spring had sprung again
candour is only limited by the language used
art box (1963)
you called me from a crate to let me know
which way’s up in case I’d been snow-blinded
but I’d already worked it out like a work of art
deciphering the direction to take to be there
at the top in search of a name and a hand
where are we now that each of us is afraid
gold standard (1964)
or even when his voice is heard we know it
not to be the kahuna we had been led to expect
or even when an electric sunrise pushes above
the horizon there’s only one foot booted ready
or any number of other things sent to dazzle
it’s this distraction that keeps us easily tamed
story (1964)
the scarlet pulses southward still well enough
for the waiting hand to catch it in passing to drum
the rhythm with flesh against wood ad nauseam
and all of which in sum sabotages the strings
of the mute harp that has played throughout
there are times when out is the only clue
gift for apollo (1959)
is it before or after or simply beyond the pail
where we can open out or close down our ties
behind us as we go along with the wheels not
yet come off as if the faintest gesture of hope
in an otherwise hopeless confusion of mind
and even knowing is no longer à la mode
written between february 2019 and march 2020 in single sittings
from sparks thrown off by robert rauschenberg's series of combines
with each poem structured by five line-lengths and an envoi line
poem titles are as per combine title with date as archived at
https://www.rauschenbergfoundation.org/art/series/combine
© john mingay 2020
a facqueuesol paperless book